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17 March 2010 @ 07:05 pm
Urgh urgh now departure is set for Monday but I am not fooled. I ain't going nowhere anytime soon.

Just going to burn my way through sheets and sheets of paper sketching until I know what the hell is going on. At least this way I'll have some art to post. >:P
 
 
17 March 2010 @ 02:22 am


gdit what is wrong with me

BUT OF COURSE THEY WOULD ONLY DOUBLE BATTLE YOU SO IT'D LOOK MORE LIKE THIS



haha i haven't done sprite edits in a while, it's fun. it is sadly difficult with pokemon sprites to make one taller than the other but eh whatever
i don't know what their teams would be i haven't given it too much thought (believe it or not)
[info]delcat threw out some great suggestions though i think in the last entry SO THERE'S THAT



unrelated but there was an earthquake last night, how about that

I NEED TO GO TO BED
 
 
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Current Music: 27420. The Lonely Island - Boombox (ft. Julian Casablancas)
 
 
 
16 March 2010 @ 04:06 pm
Grr. My trip has been postponed until Saturday at the earliest due to general flakiness.
IDK, I got the impression from our-would be host last week that Monday wasn't soon enough, but I guess he's reassessing what an ordeal moving house actually is.

At this rate, I doubt I'll be leaving until April, and will end up staying wayyyy longer than the intended month. I'm just glad I got the memo before I'd really packed anything.

Aaaanyways. My hair is settling into its new cut, and my DS has been practically glued to my hands for the past two days. Woop.
 
 
15 March 2010 @ 09:22 pm
i've been up for like almost 24 hours wooooo hooooo


MORE LADYSMOKER AND HUNTER WELL IF YOU INSIST haha everytime i think about posting these i always wonder if i should put off posting for a few more days so there'll be more stuff in it but whatever this is probably enough LET'S DO IT WOOOO

all over the emotional scale here, get a grip )

i need to eat something and get some sleep and not stay up drawing darn it
 
 
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Current Music: 24187. beFour - You Gave Me Life
 
 
14 March 2010 @ 06:07 pm
I recently read a transcript of a presentation given by a Russian man named Dmitry Orlov. The subtitle of the presentation states its premise quite plainly: "The USSR was better prepared for collapse than the US." This blog post of mine will be largely derived from Mr. Orlov's presentation, so if you'd like to read it--and in my opinion, you should, since I believe it is incredibly insightful and important--it can be found at http://www.energybulletin.net/node/23259.

Of course, comparisons of the present-day United States to the pre-collapse Soviet Union might seem premature, since the United States is still comparatively intact and since no one can predict the future, it is impossible to determine exactly when or if the United States will suffer a similar collapse. However, Mr. Orlov's presentation distinguishes itself by openly admitting that such predictions are impossible to make, and rather than attempting to make strong predictions about the future, spending most of its time making insightful observations about the present. Failure to anticipate the future is often a consequence of failure to adequately understand the present, and you don't need a crystal ball to know what's happening right now; just reliable information.

I must insert my usual disclaimer that I dislike politics, believe politics are a hugely useless waste of time, and am usually hugely disappointed when people start taking political approaches to solutions. However, once again, Mr. Orlov's presentation avoids such quagmires by steadfastly avoiding political solutions, going so far as to echo my own sentiments perfectly by concluding that national politicians are a "colossal distraction"; the presentation is mostly about the state of society rather than any political environment, which is a breath of fresh air in our contemporary environment that refuses to let go of the notion that a country can regulate its people into living well without cooperation or participation from the general public. Those familiar with my own sociopolitical agenda know well that I strongly believe the only real solutions to humanity's problems lie at the social level and not the political level, so I am glad to see this approach taken, and I hope other people are, too.

All this said, then, the meat of this blog post of mine is to highlight the key mistakes that American society has made in our contemporary environment. Mr. Orlov posits that "The differences [between the Soviet Union and the United States] are just as interesting as the similarities," and once again, I have to agree with him. Politically neutral people often maintain that any basic category of political system--whether Communism, Socialism, Democracy, Republicanism, Totalitarianism, Anarchy, or otherwise--could work perfectly well given proper societal participation. Opponents of Communism will readily observe that Communism has never "worked," that it has never produced a sustainable society which offered a high quality of life to its people. The examples need no reviewing: The Soviet Union, China, North Korea. Proponents of Communism correctly observe that all these examples failed largely because of corruption in government and abuse of the system by politicians rather than fundamental failings of the system itself. The mistakes and shortcomings of the Soviet Union are well known in our society today; the similar mistakes of America, however, appear to be invisible to Americans, perhaps because those mistakes are so ubiquitous that they no longer appear remarkable, just as no one suddenly glances up at the sky and exclaims "Oh wow, the sky is blue!"

Mr. Orlov goes into a fairly extensive list of contrasts between the Soviet Union and the United States, highlighting things which the Soviet Union got relatively right that the United States is getting very wrong. Most of these contrasts seem at least reasonably valid (although they are very much opinions which Mr. Orlov has chosen not to back with hard statistics), but I have taken the liberty of distilling these specifics down to some more general characteristics that fundamentally strike at the core of what's wrong with American society today. I have been so brash as to list these characteristics in paragraph format below. The Soviet Union was the same as the United States in many key ways, but here is one American's opinion on the most important ways in which today's America is different.

Emphasis on growth rather than sustainability The American socioeconomic reality is completely based on, and dependent on, growth. Society cannot be maintained where it is now; a year in which the GDP grows but does not grow "enough" is literally called a "growth recession," signaling growth which is not large enough to sustain the economy, resulting in a net loss. Given humanity's basic physical reality that nothing in the world is infinite, it should be blatantly obvious that growth cannot be maintained forever. Eventually, all resources will be consumed, and all space will be filled. Any society or economy which fundamentally requires constant growth is doomed to eventual failure. If any society wants to last an appreciable length of time, it must put its mind to longevity rather than the constant acquisition or generation of more capital. (Bear in mind that "capital" does not mean only money, but can also refer to natural resources such as coal or steel, industrial resources like machinery, or human resources, i.e. people and education.)

Living beyond means An inevitable consequence of the preceding point (dependence on growth) is that eventually, people will habitually bite off more than they can chew. In today's American society, it's almost a cliche that "Everyone's in debt." It's pretty much true: To rack up thousands of dollars in credit card debt and then maintain only the minimum payments is a routine practice among many people. Debt is not considered something to avoid; it is considered normal, something to be lived with. Houses and cars which cannot be afforded by people are bought on credit and then paid off over many years, leading to virtually lifelong debt. The most expensive things in America have not been paid for; they are "owned" by people who could never afford them and will spend the rest of their working lives paying off things that they think they own, but are really owned by a bank. When most things are bought on credit, there is no real exchange of capital, and the economy is utterly hollow, built upon nothing. Not only that, but this kind of mindset becomes self-perpetuating: Once people get it into their heads that they can "buy" anything they want on credit if they're willing to gladly accept debt, greed sets in, and people buy even more things they cannot afford. The United States' almost incomprehensibly large trade deficit with China attests to the fact that consumption of things we can't really afford has become a national norm; cheaply-made goods produced by sweatshop labor may seem like a good deal, but when a whole nation's supply of goods is based on it, there's a steep price to pay, and the greater that debt stretches out, the harder it will be to pay off later.

Lack of planning for the future Again, this follows from the previous points. As people take on more and more responsibility for debt, the present becomes increasingly unsustainable, but few Americans seem quite willing to accept responsibility for what might happen in the future. This is evident not only in how carelessly Americans spend money, but also other resources; Mr. Orlov highlights energy (currently a very hot topic) in his presentation, but this is really a subset of the same problem: It's not that we don't have energy resources, it's that we're using them up more quickly than they can be replenished. If people could take a step back and realize what the current rate of consumption means with regard to the future, they might live rather differently. As it is, the present situation seems like a runaway train: There's no stopping it.

Focus on the individual rather than on society The idea of reward is fundamental to American society. It is a quite mainstream idea that there is no reason to expend effort in doing something unless one can benefit personally from it. "If you can't sell it for money, it's useless" is unabashedly espoused by people everywhere. It should be quite obvious that this attitude leads to selfishness in people, as well as inequality: Those who have, see no reason to give to those who have not, since the act of giving nets them nothing personally. This also leads to apathy, since selfishness is so highly valued. Ultimately, selfishness, inequality, imbalance, apathy, loneliness, and alienation are the fruits of a reward-based culture.

Reliance on money Mr. Orlov's description of how money was handled in the Soviet Union struck me as science-fiction. I'm not saying it wasn't true (I really have no idea whether it was true or not, since I have never lived in the Soviet Union), but it was so vastly removed from the contemporary American experience that it seems literally impossible to my mind. Can it really be possible that there was a society in which money had no use, and was traded freely as if it were a trinket rather than something with real value? The idea seems not only impossible, but unimaginable in today's American society. Money is so firmly at the core of almost everything--everything--that Americans do, that the idea that one could live without money, or regard money as having no value, is akin to suggesting that a person could live without nutrition or water. Granted, any rational person can, after thinking about it for a moment, acknowledge that money itself does not "do" anything, that in the most practical sense it is worthless since it is simply used as a medium for exchange, but the need to earn a living seems like such a global necessity that it's hard to imagine that 20 short years ago, there was a country of people who lived without use or need for money. Sure, it's not hard to imagine cavemen living without money many thousands of years ago, but in our modern society, could people in a large, technologically advanced country like the USSR really live that way? Wow! If so, that's definitely helpful in averting economic disaster, since people who live without use for money are relatively unaffected by any economy.

Lack of self-sufficiency If a typical American resident were placed into the middle of a forest, a thousand miles from any other people, how long could they survive? In the service-based economy that is so popular in America now, people make a living sitting at desks in business clothing while talking on a phone, producing business documents written in business language that is all about making money, and having meetings where several business-clothing-attired people gather around a table and talk about how they can generate even more money. Many of these people lack even a basic understanding of how to produce or sustain the things that are necessary to their own lives: Shelter, food, clothing, and the like. Most of them have no idea how to build a house, grow crops, or weave or sew. Many are not even aware of how to do basic maintenance tasks on the machines that are so important to their lives, like changing a flat tire or installing a new hard drive into a computer. There once was a time when "home economics" was taught in American high schools; these classes were controversial for some reason, and seem to have fallen out of favor. Today, children grow up utterly uneducated in "real tasks" that would actually aid their survival; instead, they are taught to rely on money, then given housing, food, and clothing by a system rather than taught to produce these things for themselves. The result is a society of completely helpless, ignorant people who are unaware of how to do anything other than prepetuate the processes of that system. If required to fend for themselves in the absence of that artificially-created system, many of these people would die. People who grow vegetables and other foods at home are somewhat buffered against economic collapse, since they do not need to buy food from a market, but can produce their own; how many Americans actually grow food in this way, other than the farmers who grow and sell the food that is bought by mainstream society?




All of this being said, it's worth adding that no one is saying the United States will necessarily disappear in a puff of smoke or degenerate into a huge civil war zone. The Soviet Union suffered some considerable instability as it went through cataclysmic changes, but ultimately most of its people survived, and today, regardless of what might have happened 20 years ago, Russia is at least relatively livable, and people can pretty much get on with their lives there as if nothing had ever happened. Things may go similarly in America; doom-and-gloom scenarios may happen, but then again, the transition to something new may be relatively painless and transparent. No one knows exactly what will happen in the future, but one thing is abundantly clear: The current way of doing things cannot remain in place forever without toppling over and being replaced. Regardless of when that happens, it is in each individual's best interests to be aware, and to be prepared. Addressing the social problems listed here might be a good start.
 
 
13 March 2010 @ 07:37 pm
Nic and I made this game as a sort of quickfire challenge.

I did the art, which took 2 hours, and he did everything else, which took a bit over 5 hours, broken down into smaller blocks.
Anyways. It's called Lunchtime For Nessie. It's a (vastly improved) Snake clone where you play as a sea monster gobbling up plantlife and boats and such.

The best part is that it's made 100% by us and totally free and indy and all that jazz! :D

download it now!

Sorry Mac users. It only runs on PC at present.

Other news: I cut my hair and it's super short. Too short to tie back into a ponytail, even.
The new Pokémon games come out tomorrow and I am totally not going to drive over to Target to buy them in the morning. >_>;
 
 
12 March 2010 @ 08:06 pm
Ultramega OK! recording! The cd burner was acting weird so I had to stitch four tracks together, it shouldn't noticable though.

Trenthian - Wizards and Warriors - Wizards in my Armor (Warriors in my Longjohns)
Beatdrop - Guilty Gear X - Alpha Blade
Eternal Darkness - Ram Dao/Cambodia, 1150 AD
Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children - Water
Platonist - Zelda: Link to the Past - Ghost Grove

I ENJOY COMPLAINING ABOUT FF7 AND ALL ITS SPIN-OFFS, DON'T MIND ME i do enjoy the music though
well some of it

I really need to raid DoD, I haven't done that in a while.


On a related note, Alix actually picked up that new FF, 13 or whatever. He hates pretty much everyone in it (no surprise) and says that several of the cinematics are hilariously idiotic even only an hour in. In a great tragedy the Seifer rip-off does not sound like this guy. YOU DROPPED THE BALL, SQUARE. I GUARANTEE THAT WOULD HAVE MADE YOUR GAME MORE INTERESTING


I still haven't picked up that free Jirachi and I need to do that aaaagh. Although on a Pokemon note, I went and took caps of the Celebi movie a few nights ago, and found out that my bootleg subbed copy has some pretty hilariously broken dialogue at points. IT SHOULD BE FUN i need to sort through them all first though

Turns out that the Celebi movie still sucks, but I suspect my dislike for Celebi plays a part in that. Thankfully once that's out of the way we can move onto the Lati movie which I adore.


Unrelated but if you haven't watch Koyaanisqatsi it's actually all on youtube in one file! The whole movie! YOU SHOULD WATCH KOYAANISQATSI
I LOVE THAT MOVIE
GO WATCH IT
also maybe it's just the mood i'm in but i swear this song is about the lady pining after her ladyfriend who is with a guy she does not approve of
i feel the ending supports this interpretation

Also I'm-a pimp [info]capslock_tf2 since it is v new and needs people and also I LOVE CAPS
CAPS CAPS CAPS


In Metal Gear news Big Boss apparently fastens balloons to people and pats butts and fools people with cardboard cutouts. I can't even say I'm surprised anymore by this. OH KOJIMA.
Hilariously enough, i DID hear that Kojima had played and really enjoyed Left 4 Dead, which got me trying to imagine a Kojima version of L4D and hahahhaahaha
hahahahahaha
hahahaaa


(re: ocelot kissing snake in mgs4)
Me: man someone went and found some of the most amusing youtube comments for that cheek kiss
Me: so many along the lines of IT'S NOT GAY
[info]illix: where where where
[info]illix: hahahaha
[info]illix: HOW IS IT NOT GAY
Me: lemme see if i can find it
[info]illix: A DUDE
[info]illix: KISSES
[info]illix: ANOTHER DUDE
[info]illix: how the...THIS IS HOW KOJIMA GETS AWAY WITH THIS SHIT
[info]illix: it's the same thing he did in MGS2 in order to teach you about postmodernism
[info]illix: he will turn your willful self-delusion right the fuck back on you
[info]illix: admit it Kojima MGS is just performance art really
 
 
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Current Music: 27406. Tegan & Sara - Are You Ten Years Ago
 
 
12 March 2010 @ 04:38 pm
ultramega ok in a little less than an hour here omg
 
 
 
 
09 March 2010 @ 01:31 am
What do you think about love?  If you love a person, and you know beyond any doubt that you really and truly do, should you tell them?  Have you ever told a person you loved them without knowing what they would say back?
 
 
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RE: Stomach pain yesterday. Turns out it was cramps! Thanks for that, Captain Bloodsnatch.


So after bbot got kicked from a somethingawful tf2 server for being too annoying (this is indeed possible), he came sobbing to me like a baby asking for a Fallout post. I took pity on him SO HERE IT IS.

I've mentioned before that I had some serious problems getting Fallout to run properly on this computer without having to use this obnoxious side program, but Alix apparently got tired of me complaining about it and bought Fallout for me on Steam WHICH DOES SOLVE THE PROBLEM ACTUALLY
thank god

So maybe I can actually get somewhere in this, haha

IT'S BEEN AGES SINCE WE'VE SEEN THE WORLD OF FALLOUT! DO YOU NOT REMEMBER WHAT I WAS DOING OR WHAT HAPPENED? THAT'S COOL, I DON'T REMEMBER EITHER! We can find out together.

Previous installments

Does this episode involve me getting cut in half by a plasma cannon? The answer may surprise you. )

NEXT UP: THE JOURNEY HOME! WHAT WILL HAPPEN???
 
 
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Current Music: 23104. SE:SA w/Sharon Phillips - Like This Like That (Leggz & Femi B. Vocal Mix)
 
 
08 March 2010 @ 05:08 pm
welp  
Is it really already March?

I'm pretty much neglecting LJ entirely and haven't even looked at my friend's list in a month. Twitter is so convenient that I can't bring myself to come back here. Every time I make an LJ post I feel like I have to make it long and with a purpose, but I can't remember everything important that I wanted to say so I end up rambling about nothing instead. I can update Twitter as every little thought hops into my mind, though.

So, to summarize everything in my life in a nutshell:

* My life lately is like seeing a delicious-looking cookie on the ground and wanting nothing more than to have said cookie, but there is a glass wall between me and the cookie. I spend every day ramming face-first into the glass wall to get to the cookie but have so far failed miserably.

* I am, however, getting a lot better at seeing this unemployment situation in a positive light. I have more time to explore long-neglected hobbies and am becoming a lot more aware of my personal strengths and career interests. A year ago I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, but every day that fuzzy dream is becoming more clear. I just have to be patient and find the right job to achieve these personal goals.

* I've found peace of mind in that even if I don't find the best job in the world and am doomed to be broke forever, it doesn't matter. I can eventually find happiness in whatever situation is thrown at me (though I wonder if this is a bad thing? Perhaps this acceptance of bad situations makes me less inclined to do something about them).


Anyway, FFXIII comes out tomorrow~ \o/ Very excited.

Throwing my every little thought onto the internet is still a thousand times easier on Twitter, so if for some reason you are masochistic enough to be interested in the details of my life, look there. I have changed my Twitter username so if you want it, feel free to ask. As always, leave your username in the comments and I'll be happy to follow you~. LJ is just too much of a time suck.

Once again this post doesn't even really SAY anything and yet it sucked up like 30 minutes of my time;; i quit
 
 
08 March 2010 @ 04:47 am
Man I went to take a shower today and my stomach began to hurt really bad, enough so that I felt kind of dizzy and had to sit down. :O I had to cut my shower short since I was pretty sure that if I tried to finish I would have possibly passed out, haha. I felt very lightheaded.
As to what made my stomach hurt I have no idea, since I hadn't eaten anything that day except pretzel sticks to that point. And it didn't feel like hunger pangs and I'm not bleedin or anything. :O I curled up in a ball and waited for some 5-10 minutes on the bathmat and it eventually went away. VERY PECULIAR.

WELL WHATEVER I'M SURE IT'S NOTHING


I actually started the new Gumshoe game as well! :O I guess the abbreviation for it so far is AAI, alright. I only got through the first case though believe it or not because i wanted to draw smoker and hunter and yes i realize how sad this is but man I forgot how much I loved these games. All the goofy dialogue and music and sound effects and flashes of light and snapping sounds, aaaa
It's too bad that I don't really care for Edgeworth or his theme, since that makes his triumphant NOW I HAVE YOU >:D theme rather disappointing, and those are usually the highlight of the soundtracks for me. weh weh

But so far I'm enjoying it. :O Edgeworth is about as interesting as a piece of cardboard (no surprise there) BUT GUMSHOE IS SO DELIGHTFUL and so much gumshoe/edgeworth AND SO IS EVERYONE ELSE
ALSO DO NOT SPOIL ANY OF THE FUTURE CASES FOR ME, I WILL STRIKE YOU DEAD
i want to savor it at my own pace, haha


BUT ANYWAY, I HAVE A BUNCH OF LADYSMOKER AND HUNTER FOR YOU SO HERE YOU GO
i hope you like h/c cause there's a lot of it in here

We're supposed to take care of each other! Right? )


ANYWAY ALL FOR NOW there are other ideas i need to finish getting down on paper aaaa

ALSO DID YOU KNOW THAT [info]ryuichifoxe DID AN AMAZING SHOT OF SMOKER OMG

AND I KNOW SOME OF YOU HAVE ALSO DONE SOME ART OF THEM BUT YOU SENT IT TO ME PERSONALLY AND I DUNNO IF YOU WANT ME TO POST THEM HERE OR WHAT SO I HAVEN'T BUT STILL AAAAAAAAAA

aaaaaaaaaaa :DDD
 
 
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Current Music: 27373. Verka Serduchka - Dancing (lasha tumbai)
 
 
06 March 2010 @ 11:40 pm
Breaking news, dear f-list. The boyfriend and I are going to be living in Seattle for a month.

The deal is: I've been helping him out with the indy game project he's working on for WiiWare, and now the guy in charge wants to finish it up ASAP. So he offered to put us up in his new house while we work. His new house that happens to be in Seattle.

Neither of us wants to leave the Bay Area permanently, but we figured we'll take the opportunity to look at housing and jobs in the area, because a lot of the big companies in the industry are based there.

Also did I neglect to mention that we are LEAVING IN A WEEK'S TIME? OMG WHUT.

Other stuff: I bought Nic a DS Lite today for his not-birthday. My dad came back from visiting my sister in Japan, and she gave him some presents to pass on to me. Figures and keychains and candy oh my! ♥
 
 
05 March 2010 @ 08:41 pm
UMO Recording! Since bbot was out of the loop apparently and wanted me to explain this, basically Ultramega OK is a show I do for a local radio station focusing on video game music/remixes and rambling.
ANYWAY I had some trouble at the beginning getting it to record so I lost the first few minutes but I got most of it. TRACKLISTING GOES

EliteFerrex - 8-Bit Boss Battle 3
Renard - Metroid - Ridley's Lair + Battle
Mayhem vs Klippa - Super Metroid - Mother Brain
Jonathan Coulton - Re: Your Brains
Yuuyu - Yume Nikki - disregard

I messed up at one point CAN YOU TELL WHERE i have been so distracted lately it's hard to do anything


other than draw Smoker and Hunter of course but they'll show up later, I have some more little comics I want to finish with them first before I post another chunk.


IN UNRELATED NEWS at some point Loki got out (!!) and we have no idea how this happened, but he got into a fight with either Dieter or the neighbor's cat and got his leg bit pretty bad. He was limping around the house, so we took him in to the vet and got it checked out. He was running a fever, but otherwise seems okay, and they gave him some antibiotics and told us to just keep an eye on him. He's been lounging around the house sleeping in various places and no doubt enjoying the attention everyone is giving him.
Poor fatty. :<

TO USE LJ FOR PERHAPS ITS TRUE PURPOSE, DO YOU WANT CAT PICTURES

just a few )


the tank in the ducts in this gets me every time (8:15)
ACKNOWLEDGE WHAT YOU'VE DONE
 
 
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Current Music: 27365. Mayhem - Eggs (Furries in a Blender RMX)
 
 
 
05 March 2010 @ 01:15 pm
http://beatonna.livejournal.com/132574.html

Nero's mother haunts him after he committed matricide, as told by Kate Beaton.
 
 
04 March 2010 @ 02:42 pm